Thank you Sarah :-)

I can't sleep so I thought I would steal this from Sarah's blog and do it myself! Enjoy!

1. What time did you get up this morning?: 7:30
2. How do you like your steak?: medium rare
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?: Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.. BALLIN'
4. What is your favorite TV show?: of all time.. Friends currently on tv? Bones
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?: NYC or Washington D.C. but not when I have kids
6. What did you have for breakfast?: Life cereal
7. What is your favorite cuisine?: Steak and potatoes
8. What foods do you dislike?: A lot of things.. the list is to long.
9. Favorite Place to Eat?: Roadhouse
10. Favorite dressing?: Ranch
11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?: Ford Fushion (or as I like it call it, my James Bond car)
12. What are your favorite clothes?: Dresses, I think they flatter my figure the best
13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?: Europe.. all of it!
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?: working on that.. I would say 1/2 full because if I'm thirsty I'm going to drink that water
15. Where would you want to retire?: Near my family
16. Favorite time of day?: Sundown
17. Where were you born?: Dallas
18. What is your favorite sport to watch?: Football, but I like to watch all sports (except wrestling... I do not like that one bit)
19. Bird watcher?: When I am at my grandparents cabin in Ruidoso, NM: yes, otherwise: no
20. Are you a morning person or a night person?: I would say both. Since I'm an adult now I tend to not be able to stay up very late but I enjoy the good times usually had.
21. Do you have any pets?: as if you didn't know... I have a black lab named Bear. I love him very much and it scares me to think I will love my husband and children more than I love him. He's like my child, he scares me when I think he is hurt and worry about his play time with other kids. haha. (side note: Sarah- I loved your comment!)
22. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share?: I start new teacher training next week!!!! :-) And I get to see my kids in about two and a half weeks!!! HOORAY!
23. What did you want to be when you were little?: A geneticists.
24. What is your best childhood memory?: Reading books with my mom.
25. Are you a cat or dog person?: If you know me at all you know this answer. Dog person.
26. Are you married?: Nope and don't want to be for a while. (opposed to what many people in the Richardson ISD seem to think.. they always say they are sorry when they ask if I am married or not haha I want to respond don't be I'm not!)
27. Always wear your seat belt?: Yes, they save lives. I kind of see it as an equivalent to smoking-- you know it could hurt you one day so why do you do it? (or in the seat belts-don't)
28. Been in a car accident?: Yes, and old Asian lady slammed into my car making it not drivable and has given me neck and back pain. :-( And then a week after I got my new car someone hit me from behind. Also, my junior year of high school on Homecoming night all dressed up in my fancy gown my friend hit me from behind on 75 while we were driving to a restaurant. Not so funny at the time but it was an experience.
29. Any pet peeves?: many things
30. Favorite pizza toppings?: cheese
31. Favorite flower?: daisies and sunflowers
32. Favorite ice cream?: cookies and cream-- blue bell if I am being bad and the slow turned stuff for regular times.
33. Favorite fast food restaurant?: ummm I can't really stand fast food lately but if I had to I can usually eat the southern style chicken sandwich from MickeyD's
34. How many times did you fail your driver's test?: Zero
35. From whom did you get your last email?: Karen- my student teaching observer because we are having dinner tomorrow night to catch up before school starts.
36. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?: If I didn't have to pay for it... Target, I could get clothes and apartment stuff :-)
37. Do anything spontaneous lately?: On Sat. Nick and I went to Houston to see The Producer's, that wasn't spontaneous because we already bought the tickets but I didn't plan dinner beforehand- we used my iPhone to find a restaurant when we were almost there... that's about as spontaneous as I get haha.
38. Like your job?: I definetly hope so! I am freaking out right now but I know that I will love it once I get the hang out it. I just need to meet my kids, that always helps me to get a better perspective, not worry about the paperwork as much, more on the kids.
39. Broccoli?: Yes, one of the few vegetables that I like.
40. What was your favorite vacation?: I have liked all of the vacations I have been on! Africa (Zimbabwe and South Africa), New York City, California, and Costa Rica. I didn't like Cancun very much but I think if I was doing the more touristy things instead of the taking care of drunk people thing I would have had a better time. :-)
42. Last person you went out to dinner with? Kallyn, but technically it was lunch haha
43. What are you listening to right now?: Casino Royale on the t.v.


That's all folks! I hope you enjoyed!

The Blank Canvas

While I was writing in my journal I started looking at my wall and realized my life is kind of like my wall right now. On hold. The frames are filled, which shows that part of my life that is set. I have a job, I have a place to live, and great friends and boyfriend. And then there are the blank canvases. I see them as my present and future. They are blank, waiting to be filled. Waiting to know what will be put on them. I feel like I am at a cross roads right now. I can go down a path that makes me bitter and hate God or one that makes me into a positive person who knows that God is there for me during this time and the rest. Right now I am happy to be in the bitter, hating God path. But I'm scared for where that leads. I was already on edge with God for a few years, but it's always been in the back of my mind, something I didn't want to deal with. But now, with everything in front of me, it makes me face those thoughts.

I'm going to stop with this post now because it's getting into those dark places that I'm sure you don't want to hear about so I will be going back to my journal, pen and paper style.

Update on Mom: She met with her doctor Wed. and he said that her cancer levels are the same from May. Which means that it's not getting any better but not worse either. But it started out pretty bad. They said BEST case scenario about a year, but this isn't the best case if her levels aren't lowering. I also don't know if they meant a year from when the cancer developed (March) or when they diagnosed it (end of May). I know they can never make exact time lines, it would be silly to do that. I just have to remind myself that six years was a miracle, so I should be happy with whatever God gives me. Right?

Side note: HOORAY FOR SEAN MOVING TO DALLAS!!! I am EXTREMELY excited about having him closer, now if Lauren, Brent and Nick would just hurry up and get to Dallas it would be perfect. ;-)