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Do you ever stop and wonder how you got to where you are? I'm not saying where I am is bad, I think it is rather good actually, but NO WHERE near where I thought I would be five, seven, even a year and a half ago. There are many things I wish I could change that I did, but then I always think that those things made me me, and even though I hate that I did them, I had to learn from them right? With everything that has happened in my life I have to believe that things happen for a reason. This has to be true or I don't think I would be able to make it through life. I know that some things are just so horribly bad that it is hard to see but God must have a reason. Sometimes I can't see them at all and those are times I make a mental note to ask Him at the pearly gates. I wonder why people say pearly gates, I say that, but I picture them being gold. Interesting.. I wonder if that is stated somewhere in the Bible.

On that note I am going to read Harry Potter and go to bed. The title of this post is how I am feeling this week. My spirits are low but I am trying to keep them high. I don't know exactly how to do that, but I am trying.

Cake Wreckers and Family Connections

This is a freakin awesome website for people who like to bake.. or just like to see what people will pay for. haha It's this website that a women has, she posts cakes that people buy that are completely horrible. But on Sundays she posts AMAZING cakes that sometimes don't even look like a cake.

http://cakewrecks.blogspot.com/2009_04_01_archive.html

Another cake blog I found (actually on cake wreckers blog) is AMAZING. It's this sixteen year old girl and she makes cakes worthy of Ace of Cakes. I have a feeling she will be working on that show one day.

http://www.mmmeliacakes.blogspot.com/

Although these cakes are amazing, and I would love to have these skills, I am more of a sloppy cake that people look at and think, there is no way that is going to be good, and then they eat it and say holy crap that was like heaven in my mouth. :-)

It's rather interesting, because I have come to find out in college that I am actually very artsy (or like to do artsy things). It would make sense.. seeing as my entire family is full of them (on my dad's side). My grandparents were opera singers and pretty much everyone after my grandmother were artists (we have all of their paintings in our home). It's actually really nice to think about because I feel like it's a connection between myself and my ancestors. I wish I had their talents, it's amazing to look at their paintings. We shall see what is to come though, I have SEVERAL years to learn. :-) I still have photography and cooking lessons before painting though. Oh the things I want to do. Maybe that will be another post... things I want to do before I die.. a bucket list if you will. Hummm I shall work on that :-)

The craziness that is my life

My life is pretty crazy right now, but I absolutely love it. Yes, it's hard to find a job right now. But it's hard for everyone, which somehow makes me feel better. If it was just me out there that no one wanted to hire, I would be concerned, but seeing as it's a whole country thing going on I feel better.

I PASSED MY GENERALIST EC-4 CERTIFICATION!! I took it on Friday and passed with flying colors. I already have my special education certification, but because of No Child Left Behind (the education plan the wonderful W Bush did) teachers have to be highly qualified, and that somehow means that my special education certification is not enough to teach. Pretty lame if you ask me. But because of my degree I have enough classes for general ed and special ed certifications. (Which makes me think what the heck other classes did gen ed take?) I am really stoked about this.

I miss Harry Potter. I am at the beginning of the 4th book right now (Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire) and I haven't been able to read in the past two weeks because of studying for my certification test. BUT now I get to read some tonight and I am very excited to dive into the world of Ron, Harry, Hermione, and the rest of the gang.

For my Christmas ('08 Christmas), birthday, and graduation I am getting a Canon (http://www.usa.canon.com/consumer/controller?act=ModelInfoAct&fcategoryid=139&modelid=18385). I have been wanting one since high school so as you can see I am INSANELY excited about it. I am also going to buy a really nice lens to go with it, because the lens that comes with the cameras are their lowest quality. Once I get the camera and everything my little sister and I are going to have a photography session. I don't know if you know this but I have always wanted to be a photographer. I take decent pictures, but I want to take some classes or something to have amazing photos. There is just something special about capturing a moment in a photograph. Someone can look back at that one photo and hundreds of memories can flood their mind. I know I won't ever make this a career (because I know me and I have to have a stable income). But I would love to do this as a second job or something on the side. Soooooo if you want some free photos or just want to have some pictures of you or you and someone please let me know because I really want to get some practice in.

I don't know if other people think this way or just Amanda and I. (Amanda is my little sister) She sees movies in her mind. She can picture an entire movie, the details, the way she wants the camera shot, everything. This is why she wants to be a director. I see photos. When I drive anywhere I always find different areas that could be good for pictures. I love outdoor and city (like downtown Dallas or downtown of a small town) photos. There is this really cool field near my house that has some broken down farm equipment. I'm thinking Amanda and I will be going there.

I guess that's all. I am hoping to keep up with this now.