The Odds and Ends

There is nothing specific I wanted to write about in this post. Just thought I would give an update on my life right now.

The past two weeks have been very difficult. My Meme, Papa and Aunt Carla were in town, which made things a little stressful. I love them very much but seeing as I have to do most of the stuff around the house it was a lot of extra work. Also, Meme and Papa just don't really understand what Mom is going through. She pushed herself a lot that week to do stuff but they just don't get why she is so tired and that she doesn't feel well. They just don't cope with it very well. That Thursday was my Mom's birthday. We had 16 people at the house so it was a little crowded, but nice to see everyone.



That is a picture, obviously, of my Mom and I on her birthday. Holidays are really hard lately because I don't know if it will be the last one with my mom. 4th of July for some reason was really hard on me, all I could think about was that she might not be there to watch the parade next year. On a positive note for her birthday I gave Erin and Jay their wedding present and they loved it. :-) I made them a scrapbook of their dating time and it also included all of the wedding stuff. They said it was the best wedding present they got so that made me really happy. :-)

Last week... oohhhhh last week... My mom was very depressed from everything going on plus my Meme and Papa left early. I don't really want to say on here specifically what happened, but it was bad and it was heart breaking (if you want to know just call me, I just don't want to write it on here for anyone to see). It seems that this week is looking better so hopefully we are on the up.

I GET TO SEE NICK THIS WEEKEND!!! I am EXTREMELY excited because I am going to College Station to see him and then Saturday we are going to Houston to see The Producer's (it's my anniversary present :-)). I am really excited because although I LOVE seeing him here in Dallas, we don't have a lot of alone time because he wants to see his family as well (which is of course a good thing-- just saying the reason for why we don't have a lot of alone time here). I'm also going to be helping him move ANNNNDDDDD I get to see Lauren!!! We are having dinner Mon. night. This promises to be a WONDERFUL weekend.

I have been trying to get prepared for my classroom. I feel like I am way behind but I know I am ahead. It's just the perfectionist in me coming out. I am REALLLY excited though!!! I know it will be stressful, but it's finally here. I have been waiting about 7 years for this. To have my own classroom, and it's almost here!!! :-)

That's it for now I guess. Just wanted to do a little update. I hope all of you are doing wonderfully. I miss each of you terribly.

Journal Time

I have decided that I need to start a journal. Usually the blog would be enough to get out what I am thinking, but lately I have been having a lot of rough days and I don't really want to put all of that negative energy on my blog (or on my "readers"). I have been trying to find different ways to deal with my stress and depression. I have started doing acupuncture, I walk the dogs for an hour to an hour and a half a day, I try breathing exercises, I always keep myself busy but I am still not being able to control it as well as I would like (there in lies the problem... control). So I think I am going to start a journal. I found my old one that helped me get through Martin and I's break up so I think I will just continue with that one. It helped a lot last time so hopefully it will help again. :-)

Also, I am really starting to stress about teaching. I just had all of these things that I wanted to do beforehand to prepare myself better and I haven't done any of them (I started yesterday). I know that life gets in the way, it's just really hard for me to not give over 100% to something, and right now I feel like I haven't. I know that technically it hasn't started yet, but well, you know me, always want to be prepared. So it is full stem ahead!

On a happier note! I get to have a sleepover with Rachel this weekend and I am CRAZY excited about it! We haven't been able to hang out or even talk much in about a month so it will be great to catch up! :-)

ps HARRY POTTER WAS AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-)

My Legacy

I have decided that next summer I am going to begin a project I like to call My Legacy. With everything going on with my mom and talking with my grandparents about their childhoods and where are ancestors are from, I realized that I want my kids and grandchildren to know everything about me. And heaven forbid I pass away before I am old and gray, they will have something to read that gives them not only information on my life but advice. Like tell my kids about my first relationship (the highs and all of the lows), how they should save their money (especially in high school), they should travel as much as possible, that it isn't just a cliche statement to judge a person by who they are on the inside, to teach them that your size does not matter but your health does. I feel like I have already learned a lot in my short life and I want to write it all down. I think it will be nice to look at it when (hopefully) I am old and start forgetting these early years. And I want my kids to know me, because let's face it, most kids when they are teenagers don't really try to get to know who their parents are. I have this project I am doing for Christmas with my Grandma (I can't say exactly what it is because Amanda reads my blog and she is getting the present but if you want to know send me a text) that will hopefully shed even more light on my Grandma and other ancestors history. For example, I have a great great great grandmother (maybe another great in there??) that was a nurse in the Civil War (for the south of course.. uh oh) and met all of these generals and was given prestigious awards for her service in the war. Just these little things I think really let us know about ourselves. I really think it's important to know where you come from to help you know where you are going. And with the My Legacy project I hope to be able to show my kids where they came from.

Jenniferology

Rules: Read it and fill it out :-) haha

FOODOLOGY:
What is your salad dressing of choice? Ranch Fat-Free
What is your favorite sit down restaurant? hummmm Roadhouse?
What is your favorite fast food restaurant? Domino's
What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? ice cream
What are your pizza toppings of choice? cheese and more cheese
How many televisions are in your house? 4... but that's because 2 are not working right now bc they were so old they are not digital.. so soon it will be 6
What color cell phone do you have? black iPhone with a black and clear cover (why is this in the foodology part??)

BODYOLOGY:
Are you right-handed or left-handed? right
Have you ever had anything removed from your body? the 5 piercings I had haha
What is the last heavy item you lifted? glass water bowl for the dogs

BULLCRAPOLOGY
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die? no, from what is going on now I think it's best to just live every day like it is your last day
If you could change your name, what would you change it to? I wouldn't. My name is the name my mom had planned out since she was a little girl. I am the Jennifer Marie she has always wanted :-)
How many pairs of flip-flops do you own? umm a good amount, but I only wear my A&M ones
Last person you talked to? Nick :-)
Last person you hugged? My mom

FAVORITOLOGY
Season? Fall
Holiday? I don't think I have a particular one, I enjoy them all
Day of the week? Saturday.. it's the day I try to make myself relax
Month? April so far. There are usually a lot of events going on and my birthday is that month

CURRENTOLOGY
Missing someone? NICK!!!!
Mood? aggravated
What are you listening to? DAMN FOX NEWS (can you tell I'm annoyed?? Papa -my grandfather- is a wonderful conservative like my father and likes to make comments the whole time that annoy the heck out of me, but as another side note: he doesn't know I am a Democrat. And he never will.. love my Papa to death but there is NO way I would want to have a political discussion with him)
Watching? see above
Worrying about? hahahahhahahah ummm Mom, grandparents, Dad's health, the dogs, becoming a teacher, my students, my health (I am now having back problems), long distance with Nick and the list goes on and on :-)
First place you went this morning? walked the dogs for an hour (short walk today)
What's the last movie you saw? The Proposal! WAAYYY CUTE
Do you smile often? I try :-)

MEOLOGY
If you could change your eye color what would it be? I wouldn't
What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic? I don't haha
Do you own a digital camera? haha yes, I have a SLR Canon Digital Rebel T1I as my fancy camera and then a Panasonic for a point and shoot
What's on your wish list for your birthday? pots and pans for my future apartment
Can you do push ups? yes
Can you do a chin up? not well
Does the future make you more nervous or excited? definitely excited, if you aren't excited about your future than you should change it :-)
Car wreck? unfortunately yes, more than one
Do you have an accent? yes, everyone does, just matters where you go haha
When was the last time you cried? today
Plans tonight? reading Harry Potter and attempting to sleep
Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? yes
Name 3 things you bought yesterday? pants for teaching, yogurt, and ranch mix for dinner
Have you ever been given roses? yes
Met someone who changed your life? several
How did you bring in the New Year? with a wonderful night with Nick
Name three people who might complete this? Sarah, Lauren and Lara?? PLEASE :-)
Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? yes, I would love to see many historical events (man where is that DeLorean when I need it!)
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? several actually
Does anyone love you? yes
What songs do you sing in the shower? I don't sing in the radio.. it would just be mean to those around me ;-)
Do you like to cuddle? whenever my love is around!
Have you held hands with anyone today? nope
Who was the last person you took a picture of? the family on the 4th
Are most of the friends in your life new or old? newish, from college
Do you like pulpy orange juice? I like McDonald's orange juice.. does that have pulp?
What is something your friends make fun of you for? what do my friends not make fun of me for?? haha ummm Nick makes fun of the fact that I cut up my steak right when I get it
What is the last time you ate peanut butter and jelly? last weekish- we took them to Hurricane Harbor with us
What were you doing 12 AM last night? laying in bed
What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? swimming.. I had a dream about swim team and I hadn't had one of those in a long time!


I hope you enjoyed Jenniferology time :-) PLEASE fill it out! It will be fun to read everyone's posts!